I am not my own.

Truth.  Often hard to hear, and even harder to live by.
Have you ever been faced with truth in your life and been absolutely afraid of it?  Anxious to the point that you don't even want to hear it, because you know the implications it will have on your life will be so deeply significant? I have.  This past week has been another for the record books.  And by that I mean those unforgettable times in my life where the Lord has blown my heart and mind away.  So much so, that I can't walk away the same.

I sat down to write this blog hoping to pour out into words the journey I have been on as I've processed what the Lord has been showing me this week.  And now I find that I can't.  I want to share with others the miraculous work of the Lord in my life, but at this moment... words fail.  To confine such experiences to a blog seems impossible to me.  But I so badly want others to know.  Not for my sake, but for theirs.  To hear that the Lord is mighty.  That He is loving and faithful.  That He is good.  So instead of a moment by moment narrative, I'll try a list.  I list of the essentials.  Of truth.

These things I know:

I am not my own. [1 Cor. 6:19]
 - In persecution, in blessings, in hardship and in goodness... all I am is Christ's.  I am to "commend myself in every way..." [2 Cor. 6:4]  To entrust myself fully to His purpose and plan.  No fear.  No worry. Just submission to One far greater than I.

My purpose is too obey. [John 14:15]
 - It may not be about me.  It may not even make sense. But obedience will always produce... and behind it "is the reality of the Almighty God." For His glory.  For His name.  

I have been crucified with Christ, it is I who no longer live... [Galations 2:20]
  - How can I read this and not be changed?  The life-shattering truth is... I can't.

Three simple points.  Three nuggets of truth.  Three things that have changed everything. I've read it it. I've written about it. I've wept over it. Now... will I live it?  Will I allow God to change me? No fear. No anxiety. Only trust and promise and truth.  The powerful reality of Christ in front of me; the sin of my past behind. The calling of Christ on my life. This calling is not to a person, or a place, or a even a profession.  Those are just facets of such a call... He has called me to Himself.  To be fully enveloped by His heart, His love, His purpose and grace.  My calling is to Christ.

I apologize for the sporadic awkwardness of this post.  By my hope is that you will not let format and flow keep you from seeing the bigger picture...the glorious reality of a love so great and so pure that is threatening - if we allow it - to consume our lives. To use us. To leave us forever changed.

Will you let it?